worship wednesday

it is the middle of Holy Week. i don't know how Jesus felt when he knew his death was just a few days away. the mere thought of having the option of knowing when and how i will die is just way too intense for me to handle. he remained a leader, strong in his relationship with the Father, and even cared for his disciples.

when he was beaten, whipped, punched, slapped, and spit on, he didn't get angry. he remained calm, quiet, and carried OUR cross because he and OUR Father love us so much. i don't know about you, but just remembering that makes me reflect on my actions, thoughts, words, and appreciation for what OUR Savior did for us.

so so so undeserving.

Holy Week
Wednesday
My savior, 
do you invite me to share 
in the glory of the resurrection? 
Please stay with me 
as I struggle to see 
how accepting the crosses of my life 
will free me from the power 
of the one who wants only 
to destroy my love and trust in you. 
Help me to be humble and accepting 
like your son, Jesus. 
I want to turn to you 
with the same trust he had in your love. 
Save me, Lord. Only you can save me.

Thursday
Loving Provider,
you gather me in this upper room with your son, 
to be fed by your love. 
At that supper, Jesus told us to "love one another" 
and I know that is the heart of his gift, 
his sacrifice for me. 
I ask that I might find the source of my own heart, 
the meaning for my own life, 
in that Eucharist. 
Guide me to the fullness of your love and life.

FridayMy Lord,
your son has suffered so much, shed so much blood. 
I was born with so many faults 
and my nature is so full of weakness, 
and yet your son Jesus has died on the cross. 
For me. 
I know your grace has the power 
to cleanse me of my many sins 
and to make me more like your Son. 
Thank you for your goodness and love for me. 
I ask you, Father, to watch over me - always.

My savior,